no deb its not u.u dont hold that much importance in my life that i would blog about you! haha, just kidding but no its really not u...

miss leow says we should do wad we want! hear that mummy? i should take ARTS!!!!!! i dont want to do science, i hate it hate it hate it..why the hell didnt she get into medicine, then they wouldnt stuff it down my throat, then they would let me do whatever i want! which is what exactly i dont know..but i do know this, i dont want to take science, its so freaking rigid, so mainstream, so muggable! u noe there's no joy in doing well in science cuz well u mug properly and u'll get high..really really simple..u dont mug, u wont..but for subjects english,ss, hist its like u cant mug so doing well all depends u noe..on the way u write, on the way your brain functions while taking the paper and blah blah..the thrill of getting back your results is so much higher, the adrenalin pumping(ooo haha ok im exaggerating but u get the point) cuz you'll usually always fall into the extremes, u either screw up bad or do pretty ok. and u wonder which extreme u lie in. and and and the most important thing would be that there is really no sadness involved in not doing well. its the situation's fault. u didnt do well cuz u didnt get it..see no fault of yours but for science..you didnt do well cuz u didnt study! hah see now that's YOUR fault!! and theres no right and wrong for arts which makes it all the more easier to crap your way through but of course if u attempt that for science u probably wouldnt do very well. but who am i kidding, ill probably end up taking science.. and ill probably blame it on my parents, u noe say its their fault im taking it cuz they want me to..but deep deep deep down, in a tiny corner somewhere, ill probably be taking it cuz its a lots safer and my fuure looks a lot more settled with it..afterall arts is a hell lot easier to screw up

simply cuz im a product of the society..see its not my fault!!!!!u made me this way! u never let me persue my passion or u aways killed it (think maths)hmuph.. haha..oh and the stress thing was amusing..obviously i want the extra holiday but then again i wont have anytime to study so i have no intention of coming and seeing starts while attempting to answer which gene enters which plasmid..its already difficult as it is, no need to add constellations to the confusion?

oh oh orals and miss chow..i dont really noe if its a good thing or not..cuz for me it would be wierd talking like that to her..i usually crap with her..but then agin its just orals..me and taling..shouldnt really be much of a problem right? right? ok im worried now..what if i go in and burst out laughing at something she says. what if i say something stupid and she laughs and then i laugh..oh no the endless possibilities of me making a fool of myself..nvm nvm darn i wanted an unknown teacher like cheryl ng like last year..then i can say wad i want and feel no restictions. ahh back ot restrictions...gosh i think im running away from something, dont noe from what but i think my whole life i've just always wanted to run away, never wanted to stay put and deal with things...

the whole world is out there and im stuck here......me in the big world..hahahaha ok that sounds familiar..oh shit ok no more blogging need to attempt to understand chem