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V27 :kiss away the young thrills

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peace out. 3:12 PM

omg! i just realised that on google chat or whatever that weird thing is u can talk to anyone u have sent an e-mail to previously. actually im not even sure how it works and im just assuming here but freak guess what! he-she just spoke to me. and i was wreaking my brains trying to figure out who it was and how he added me without my knowledge. ah the advances of technology never cease to amaze my noob bran.

so anyway its over. yes its over? its weird shall not dwell there shall i. but some happier news, i got my dress. heh no actually i just rang up ta.ra yesterday and borrowed her sister's one. lol sorry! im such a lazy shod. it really takes a lot of effort to find u know. now i just have to get my accessories and what not.

you know ive come to realise that prom is seriously one hell of a pain in the ass. i wonder if i was a guy. all I'd need is a jacket and a nice shirt and jeans and whola id be done. curse the female gene shall we.
anyway im trying to change my blog template now..lets see how well that turns out.. chu! come help me!! heh and dont worry ill save this one still. it has many memories!

alright im off for the day. cya! oh and tomorrow me and the mother are going to redesign the house. how imba cool is that!

peace out. 12:49 PM

my a's are nearly over date with the classmates.. lol

starbucks!! i heart this place. even though its ridiculously expensive and what not, i always meet random pple here eg m****n heh! tar.a would understand!

peace out. 8:31 PM

i've always wondered why punjab.i farewells have to be so loud and brash. every year the grandparents go for their annual pilgrimage or whatever you call it to india and they left a few minutes back for this year's trip. lookie lookie guess who turned up to bid them farewell.. well, my whole entire mega family!..and oh by the way we actually all had dinner together yesterday too. heh. i find that a tad amusing though i guess tradition is tradition and its nice to know you're loved even if it becomes a tad annoying and choke-worthy after a while. oh well they are an endearing bunch though. =)

so anyway i met my ang.moh friend again today! and hopefully if i can get my lazy bum up and go jogging tom again ill meet him again! goodness i lead a sad life..hmm tell me something i didn't know

oh and guess what i learnt today..idiot jame.s never knew i was punjab.i! slap the boy the next time you see him please..although right now i still highly doubt he knows the difference between t.amil and punja.bi but nvm i shall let him live in his little ignorant world for a tad longer.
but he and weeh.ao were nice enough to help me shell prawns today so it cancels out i guess. "zero-sum game anyone?" oh my god, i learnt something from h3! are u proud sir!!..anyway i digressed.. we went to longhou.se for lunch cuz school canteen was closed. you know in my two years in rj i have never gone to long.house. what an utter loser i am. everyone always says lets go longhouse then somehow we just always seem to end up in Thomson instead. oh well i guess there's always a first. well,anyway genius me decided to get prawn mee since xue.ting said it was quite good. too bad it didn't look that nice when i realized i couldn't shell the prawns! dont scoff im sorry i have limited ability with chopsticks ok! and since no one had tissue paper i didnt want to use my hands. cut long story short i have nice friends! ok change that to friend since only wee.hao helped to shell it while jame.s just ate all the pawns i gave him! and thought xt tried, she couldnt shell the prawn with her chopsticks either! so im not that bad. heh. it was a good meal overall. yay!

and guess what we just bought a Rubik cube which is highly annoying since no one can figure out how to get it back to the original. but its rather amusing to watch my dad at it. its nice seeing him become so kid like all over again. i can totally picture what he must have been like when he was younger. heh

alright that's it. i still cant believe my a's aren't over. FUDGE!!!

sometimes i think maybe if i blink hard enough, everything will just disappear and then that smug voice pops in my head and says "dont be an idiot". theres always going to be a part of me that is going to be afraid of you, terrified of your anger and what it unleashes. and that's just something i cannot live with. i dont want to fear you for it makes me feel foolish and unsafe. anger's one heck of a wasted emotion isnt it? bah lets not dwell into the sadder parts of the day and just be glad for everything i have yes.

oh by the way x.ian have fun in aussi.eland and buy me something that makes me fat please. i need to fit into my prom dress!
alright cya poks!

peace out. 8:23 PM

econs is getting so overwhelming. i know i have to do so much and yet i have no idea where to start. its like walking in the wilderness, wondering which tree, out of the gazillion in front of you to chop down.

ok bad analogy. im lost and im tired and i want to go shopping! i do not like h3.
oh well. i want my starbu.cks coffee.

peace out. 9:51 PM

i bought a dress today! (among other things)..no no not a prom dress.. that can wait, a normal pretty going out dress! i love retail therapy! so happy! ok and from tom onwards im studying for h3. if u see me doing anything else slap me. bah why did the silly me decide to do econs.

oh by the way he-she turned out to be very nice though he did tell me something which made me rather sad. i guess all i can do now is hope, yes. and of course mug for the more important things left.

peace out. 10:26 PM

ok my second post in like 2 hours. cant sleep, a tad apprehensive i guess.

anyway happy anniversary c.ao!!!! heh 2 years and still going strong!! i heart you dear!! =)

and here's a little BOO to elle.n k.an who still reads my blog after all these years!

peace out. 12:32 AM

some day soon im going to wake up and realise that its all over.
12 years of formal education, wearing a uniform, waking up at 6 am. sitting at the same table listening to the little ramblings, hearing the bell ring... friendships will be lost i guess though some will be cherished and held on to, majority will fade with the ticking clock. perhaps at that moment, ill come to realise and it'd finally sink in that we are over too.

and when that day comes, soon as it may be, i promise to tell u about it, shed a few tears, laugh a little and then pick myself up again. for that day will mark a new chapter in this journey. where we begin our march through the hedges we let grow around us and walk a new path.

dear e, i still miss you lots and i know u know but im happy now. tired but happy. sometimes its a little weird how life plays out but it always works out in the end for the better. i know you agree and im glad we're friends again since u somehow always manage to have more loser moments than me and never fail to make me feel so much better about the situation. thank you for everything.

its funny, the a's arent over and yet it feels like they are. maybe because tomorrow im going for my uni thing and that feels so much more important right now.

and after my moment of brilliance with the he-she im leaving the rest up to god. i guess its time to have a little faith and trust myself.

goodnight dears and cross your fingers for no rain tommorrow.

peace out. 10:09 PM

ok im megaly screwed! oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit!!!!!!!!!!!!
turns out the woman i thought was going to interview me is a man! and i kept responding to him as ms lim! ffffffffffffffff!

alright there goes my hope of getting in. he probably has a huge black mark on my face with the words idiot girl on it!

oh fudge!!!!!!!!!!! ah!!! i want to go hide under my bed and never come out.
ok deep breaths nvm and guess what he's vice-president of the alumni club. so im really in deep shit. i bet his view holds lots of weight there. kick me pls.

i want to pretend this thing never happened. wait till i tell the others after bemoaning about how she was going to be a skinny woman who was going to eat me up and how much i wanted her to be fat, i now know she's actually a he. seriously kick me please.

peace out. 12:03 PM

imagine that i never have to do math again..ever! how absolutely weird.

peace out. 9:51 AM

i just read jam.es' blog on alfia.n s.a'at and im sorry but i just felt a little compelled to add this.

pls dont judge mr s.a'at for a moment of folly. he's a bloody genius really and you have to see his work to truly understand how good he is. i heart him! heh

and regarding the e-mail. yes it was certainly stupid but i think you have to understand the emotion and rational behind it. if your community wasnt allowed to openly exist, how would you feel. perhaps we need to step into his shoes too.

yup thats it. the long awaited and dreaded a's have begun. i think i screwed gp. =( and im scared they shift the maths bell curve ill just die. hehe alrighty cya poks around.

peace out. 8:25 PM