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V27 :kiss away the young thrills

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trent!
angela
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deb and bel
mish
hannah and co
clique
shihui
michelle

so everyone is looking at the future, wondering what's in store, praying for the best and along with that reminiscing the past. wishing they could have done some things differently, hoping that everything's gonna be same. Just evaluating life in general i guess. everyone except me that is. dont know perhaps its the fear of the unknown that's keeping me at a standstill. im still kinda in a limbo, knowing fully well that RGS is now behind me but still not yet accepting it. life's gonna change, im gonna change, we all are but JC's gonna past in a blink. in and out. just like that. so im going to have to make the most of it. its too early for thank you's and sorry's (those come at the end of the year) so i wont go into that and its too early to start thinking about the four years that have just passed cuz it still feels so surreal so i guess im just living each day at a time now, with no aim, no plan no nothing. some may term my state of nothingness as simply being lazy but i'd like to think of it as my "me time". just take a break, have a blast and then in jan next year go back to all of it again and survive. ill manage.

yes so away from that little musing ill say that wed was perfect. yes, thats the word. perfect. you know in all my years of knowing you i think i never knew you guys as much as i did that day. it felt nice and im glad things turned out the way they did. it feels so much better knowing that no matter what you still have my back, just like ill always have yours. yes see im diverging into the contemplation mode which im refusing to do for the next week or so..the time for that will come just like the time for everything else and today is simply not one of those days.

so anyway i was looking at angela's photos and i have come to a realization that ive grown quite a bit from before. i mean take my sec 2 photo and compare it with the prom one..hmm rather different i would say. but then again if u compare the normal me with the sec2 one i think its still the same. so the specs have changed/gone depending on the day and the braces are off and the ears are pierced..other than that everything else is still the same.. hmm well, maybe im taller. oh gosh why am i doing this?

self-reflecting? na not today as promised. so how do i keep this entry happy and worth your time without allowing you to enter the inner workings of my mind? well lets see, first of all im breaking out!! eeeewww!! i hate pimples. humph shall walk out with a bag over my head. then there's the fact that im putting on weight!maybe it has to do with the fact that im not playing softball anymore and ive been pigging out lately. wad can i say those hunger pangs really suck. oh and have i mentioned theres a new member in our family? ah yes bro bought a tennis racket today. its yellow and so pretty! which of course means im forbidden to touch it though im still wondering when he's ever gonna play and where and with whom. yea i guess i could take it sometime to chuwen's place. oh that reminds me bball! i wanna learn. wait she prob wont even be reading this but heck. yup so is that as unintelligent and as self-absorbed as most blogs that im reading these days are? fine i had to take a dig.

meybe i should start making lists of things a i wanna get done this hols. yea i think i might and then ill just drag lunny and shiwei with me to all my little art shows..yay ok settled then. hmm something tells me this hols isnt gonna be half bad.

peace out. 9:56 PM

troy! -squeal- BRAD PITT!!! -hyperventilate- haha yes so after a very very very long time i finally got down to watching troy last night which was really really good if i must say so myself..a hell lot better than that potter show i watched today. horrid. no actually it was ok but it definitely wasnt up to expectations. thank god for cedric though. he saved the show for me. i tell you me and nicole are gonna write in warner brothers and question their choice of actors..lets see here's wad was wrong

1) Dumbledore..honestly that was the worst performance i have ever seen.. it was way out of character..i bet he never read the books.. when i ask you when has dumbledore ever shaken harry so hard and shown so much emotion. he's supposed to be a man of wisdom and age not some old cheeseball. highly disappointed with the way he was protrayed. i say kick this guy out and bring in a new dumbledore.
2) Cho..apart from the accent everything else was WRONG WRONG and more WRONG. hmm i think even i could have been a better cho and considering im not even chinese it says A LOT!
3) Ginny..ok fine actually this one's not too bad. i guess she just needs the time to develop. she's still rather young.
yea i think my biggest problem was with dumbledore and he was supposed to be an integral part of the show. humph.

well though i must say fred and george were perfect. witty funny and def a highlight. and cedric was perfect. im glad she had envisioned him as a prince william when she wrote the part cuz thats exactly wad i saw too! krum is well wad can i say bulgarian! and the veela is pretty!! haha yea so casting for that was great! but the show still couldnt be saved. dont know why but they skipped so much, only truely like the last part. when volde came back.

so anyway today turned out to be rather fun, wad with us sitting at starbucks laughing our heads off and me and nicole squealing at adrian brody when they were showing the advert for king kong. isnt he such a IAN lookalike. i tell you they must have been brothers in their past life! yay so now i have someone to watch king kong with. and i wont forget yilin's joke of the air-sickness thing. hmm yea so it was a pretty good day

i feel satisfied. about the pics well im sorry i still havent uploaded them and anyway i find it weird why people will be asking to see my pics. i mean they all have me in it so why would you want to see them. shouldnt it be more like you just want the pic of me and you and not to see all..why or why would you want to go though 50 pics of my face. hmm or am i just being horridly selfish?
and deb seamus looks rather like a cross between roy keane and wayne rooney. half half. oh that reminds me wad the hell were they thinking letting keane go like that. honestly that was just plain STUPID! well koodos to them, not like i care. just seem to be ruining football, soon there wont be any challenge for chelsea anymore.-hah-
oh and one last thing before i go.. why are my favourite bloggers deleting their blogs. monisha cheong i demand you bring it back for me! or i shall never ever ever speak to you again..oh wait have you left? no rite.. and pooni? where did your blog go..where am i gonna go now when im all sad and depressed and need a good laugh. and yes miss you noe who. wah lao i could just box her for deleting her blog. though i totally support ***** and wad not, i still need the entertainment from her. hmm tad ticked off

other than that you would be glad to know i have picked up reading again. no not fan fic reading but actual book reading. proud am i. YODA! that reminds me when was the last time i watched all 6 movies back to back? JUNE maybe. gosh that was way too long ago. i need to set aside a popcorn date for myself and indulge in the 6 star wars movies again, and on that note i might as well throw in the lord of the rings thrilogy. yay that means less com and more couch for me. told you i was turning potatoish. exercise i will. right!

oh add relieved to the emotions im feeling now. bro was complaining of chest pain just now so parents took him to the hospital. was rather worried but mum called to say he's fine. thank goodness. rather frightening cuz he's taking the a's and he still has his s papers left and all so was rather worried. at least he's fine.

im glad. thats it for now. toodles.

peace out. 8:23 PM

i am mighty pleased with myself! i watched les miserables again yesterday! even though it was at 150 in the morn! and my eyes were all droopy and i was falling asleep on the couch..but i still managed to stay up for it! hah- im so proud..usually such a thing wouldnt be such a big accomplishment but considering i didnt sleep the night before cuz of a certain someone -coughdebcough- and the fact that ive watched the show 6 times before, it took so much willpower to actually bother catching it again!! haha ok anyway the point that i wanted to make throughout this whole ramble was that i was actually trying to download it on tuesday cuz some ass cracked my cd but then i couldnt so i resigned to have to buy it again until i managed to catch it! really really a god send u noe..so now i dont hafta buy it until i relapse into les mis need again..

ok ok im getting kicked outa the room so i cant possible post pics of FAM or go into any other details so ciaos for now

peace out. 10:49 PM

you are cordially invited to the wedding of Reshvi*der Kaur and Cau Yil*n
Date: 17/11/05
Time: 7 p.m (guests are required to be seated by 6.30)
Venue: Meritus Mendrian Hotel, Ballroom
Attire: Semi- Formal
Please be reminded that you will not be allowed in unless u bring a lavish gift
oh and if u are a shiwei then u are definitely banned as well! we will not have people who want to split us apart there!

ok eeeeeee that sounds so gay!!!!! hahaha no actually it's just me and lunny having gone totally mad due to the excessive number of hours we have had to stone for the past week. stoning is draining honestly, it sucks the life outta you but anyway work's over so hallaloya!!! and the guy actually had the odasity to ask us whether we wanted to be put on his next project. EXCUSE me sir but i am a smart girl ok, stop trying to make me stupid can! so naturally we turned him down with that oh so sweet smile of ours. shoot me before i ever enter that place again..its way way too boring and i dare say ive seen enough of those four walls to last me a lifetime. on the flip side i made FOUR appts topday!! ladeda im getting better i tell ya..from zero to four! thank the heavens! well too bad i guess i wont get any better than that

anyway as much as work has sucked im def gonna miss these couple of things:
1) my HELLO magazine.. now where am i gonna get my weekly juice of gossip!( we returned from lunch late everyday cuz we were stuck reading HELLO and staring at oh-so-hot william, prince of our hearts.
2) the costume shop! we raided the place!! ok fine kindof. haha they have the coolest costumes there..JC prom here i come..lol..we had a blast trying out afro hair! and cleopatra hair and osama masks!! fun!
3) the food!!! ahhh the amt i gauged..like i said its so boring that we had to keep eating to convince ourselves we were still alive
4) the gossip.. and the lethal stares boss lady constantly gave us
5) short boss lady.. she said good to me today..im mighty pleased
6) fat boss man..actually na wont miss him at all..so lets change that to the inseperable trio thing we had going on..come together..go back together, lunch together, even go toilet together. well, naturally if u wanted to waste more time u would go in threes wad! why so why dont they get it. 7) all the little crap incidents of ours..hmm well ill miss the madness but hopefully we get chucked in discovery camp together.. kids plus idiots like us sure hell will be a blast

hmm well yea i guess thats all about work..so tomorrow's prom and me,bel, deb and roy are putting our faith in deb's mum's stylist hands..so cross your fingers..we'll see the result tomorrow..and since ill have loads of time after that then i guess ill finally try my hand at picasa..and post pics..hmm wait didnt i say that 2 weeks ago? ah well so i, like you, procrastinate. just too bad

im still not tried yet so i guess ill go into my couch life. currently im in mourning, puffy eyed and drooly..its terrible, the 2nd love of my life got ripped away from me. and it was so sudden, so swift. i didnt even see it coming!!

my bobby jon!! ah!! how could u leave like THAT! haiz but i guess that's life. pokhead of a steph.. cant stand her now.. so why is he second? cuz my first survivor love has been reserved for a certain ian!
hahah! obviously la. he gave up a MILLION bucks for his principles. that just says it all dont ya think. well of course people like ethan and lex still rank really high up there but im moving on so ah well they are just moving down the list. so where did nathan go u wonder?

oh he's still here! just that he belongs to haley now. lol that reminds me episode 6 is taking toooo long! it has been wad? one week since i last saw nathan. humph. oh oh oh i must tell u i saw him appear on total request live. which means what? THAT HE'S HAPPENING! -hah- im feeling rather smug now.
ok well so now im really done blabing..long entry ya.. so before i go let me say a big thank you to all the juniors for the PERFECT farewell u gave us. it really meant a lot. im glad to have known u guys. thank you. live your dreams and soar. you'll make us proud just like i hope we made you guys proud. THANK YOU SO MUCH!

with that koodoes to u and a hearty goodbye. sounds so much like drinking beer. no wait where did that come from? oh wadeva ciaos-

peace out. 10:52 PM

mum in a fit of fustration with me asked what i wanted in my life and i told her; to be happy. not rich, not famous, not even perfect, just happy. to which she gave me this miffed look and said someday u'll grow up.
but i dont want to. if growing up means letting go of all my childhood fanasies and dreams, then i say please let me remain as a kid. blissful and full of hope. i dont want to be a cynical(too late.well not always.) bitter old lady when i grow up. i want to stay vibrant and full of life, laughing away with the people i love and cherish. is that really impossible. i mean is it really impossible to be happy. sure there'll be days when life sucks but i guess that why at the end of the day i want to know that i have a home to go back to. not a house, a home.
yea ask what has gotten into me. me the one that always said money is more important than love which i kind of still beliveve but now i seem to think that i need both to be truely happy. selfish and greedy as it sounds i want someone who loves me more than i love him(as shi wei says its cuz guys are made differently from girls. so u def need them to love you more to ensure no straying occurs). i guess money will help, buy the house, feed us both but wouldnt love make the house a home. or am i just being a hopeless romantic? and have i just finally watched way too many click flicks. hmm.. well ill know in about 20 yrs which is more important. but for now i guess ill stick to the easier bet and work my assoff at becoming rich. love will just have to fit in somehow, somewhere along the way. and if it doesnt come then i guess theres always a nunnary somewhere for me. sister r**h..has a nice ring to it ya!

peace out. 8:25 PM

i am so ready to shoot myself..work is horridly BORING!! ahh thankfully i have lunny and weiwei there to be lame with otherwise i would totally have died..well at least it ends on wed.thank god for that..anymore and i probably would have pulled the trigger. anyway prom is on thurs shit!! i guess ill go indian..then there's hair and make up and wad not and lookey here im working till wed which gives zilch daes to go shopping..except for this sat which i am now fully booked for..ahh such unnecessary stress.
anyway happy b'dae khaw! sorry couldnt make it.. bro's bdae had to be that dae too lol
ok im drained cya bongs around

peace out. 8:19 PM

kallang/katong has been MY home for the past 16 years.. do not ever again make the mistake of telling me where i can or cannot go simply because you and your buddies might be there. hello if i run along that road then i see you or you see me, too bad! and east coast park too.its so big how am i to know when you willl be trotting down? i will go where i please when i please. humph.
there its out and since i think ive got the job thing under contol..at least i hope so, onto other stuff

bro turned 18 today amid the torturous a's which have consumed his life for the past 6 months. i think mugging off supposed highly-valued books and notes is really taking its toll on his common sense skills.
mum: so where to for dinner today?
bro: i have exam tomorrow, cant u see im trying to cram now.
me (had to add my 2 cents worth): shouldnt you be done by now? you cant possibly expect to finish mugging by tomorrow?!
bro: and the one without the o's speaks. aiyah mummy just order macs in can!
at that point everyone just gaps at him. its his 18th b'dae and he wants macs! i could honestly just shoot him. i guess the stress is finally getting to him after all his happy-go-lucky side does seemed to have deserted him. or maybe it just went into hiding. wadever the case the house is a total drag now sis has her head buried in her books as well..exams are coming up too..and as such i am forbidden to make noise..which is taking its toll on me..excuse me but shutting up was never in my vocabulary..so now i just lock myself in the parents room and sing..fine croak..along to all my loud songs. the only means of survival that i noe

i miss softball! no not that way..but i miss having to do in the hols..like i always knew i had training to go to that kind of thing now its just bumming at home which has totally lost its appeal.

class party that day was fun! cant wait for it again. though i cant seem to get the pics on my com..somehow half way the cam always goes blank on me! shit!! stupid technology!! why couldnt people just stick to camera and film..now tell wad exactly is wrong with that huh!damn i should quit fighting it and actually go learn otherwise sooner or later im just gonna kick myself for it. yup yup thats it. toodles for now

oh did i mention i just read the whole purdue diaries thing..its so weird reading about people ive never met and will probably never meet..maybe its cuz they're just singaporean or something.. well wadeva the case i just think im so bored that ive resulted to boring my eyes out reading the many much much more dysfuctional lives out there

peace out. 7:46 PM

shit i cant stand how everyone does the guilt-trip thing on me and how i fall for it immedistely..its horrid!! i feel terrible now cuz the guy from the marketing company called and asked why we didnt come and blah blah blah..oh damn why did he have to call ME!!!!! ahhhhhh!!!!!!!! now im in a limbo..no one else wants to do with me, and i dont really wanna do it alone. ok time to make up my mind..if the other guy doesnt call me today then ill go down myself tomorrow to the marketing firm..high time i did something for me..just worried they turn out to be little cheats! hmmm but honestly they shouldnt be right..he sounded rather sincere and very disappointed that we didnt want to do it with him...or maybe im just a sucker for sob stories. damn
im too worrid to crap about anything else now..see wad with prom coming and all! i could just die.

peace out. 11:40 AM

absolutely in love with this pic..nabbed it from shi hui's blog..reminds me so much of my childhood..love it!! lol
so yea yesterdae was the last day of school. hasnt really sunk it yet so im kind of still living in my little blissful make-believe world..hmm womder how long that will last. anyway west grand boulevard and ronin came yesterdae..music's good but i think that ronin was better..much more edgy!! i like! WGB was a tad amatuer but i guess its cuz they were a lot younger. rather impressed with our local music scene now..i mean i never knew we had bands like that! well just shows how little i know about home.

lead singer from WGB..everyone was crazy over him! hah i bet all their preconceptions of us RGS girls just flew straight out the wondow. ooo did i forget to mention my cool shoes!! hehe i got them signed..yay!! nice but i cant find the pic of them so nvm will put it up some other time..


the absolutely gorgeous thing the class gave ms leow.. damn i wish i wish i had seen the real thing! 5 toes one soul... something tells me im not gonna forget that for a long time.


well no guesses for whom im gonna miss the most! dang i didnt get the pic in the end. could just shoot myself. deb i blame you for that. dont think ill ever forgive u! humph
okey ive decided im tired of posting up pics one by one..so need to learn how to use picasa..it cant be that hard rite..hmmm guess ill go try it now

peace out. 8:07 PM