Wednesday, July 26, 2006
bloody hell i screwed up flag raising today!! stupid tara and her curse! humph nvm not that many people realised..either they were seeping or they thought it was half mast..ok so in 2 weeks time, im doing it again.. if i screw up again i swear im just gonna die of laughter..i nearly did after it got stuck today.. i could see xian struggling not to burst out laughing cuz it was so expected..ok i wont screw up i really relly wont..i hope :)
oh i cant wait for chaingmai..ok why the sudden excitement cuz my parents were like ya can go what..yay! and here i was wondering if they would say ok. and they didnt even think over it it was like immediate..
me: blah blah oh we might be going to chaingmai for softball trip at the end of the year u noe.
mum: isnt that in thailand?
me: ya
mum: goes back o previously topic blah blah blah
me: huh so u mean i can go?!!
bro: u just siad softball trip didnt u. dont u HAVE to go?
me: oh ya
and back to normal conversation.. yay! it made so much more sense this way. yup if u dont get it nvm just know that im happy.
peace out. 8:51 PM
Saturday, July 22, 2006
been nearly a month since i turned 17 and yet at the same time i feel no different, no more wiser than i was then, no more happier. 17 came and went as most b'dae's do. came as a surprise though that the people i thought were "closest" to me forgot it while other random souls remembered. and for that im actually very touched so thank you.
dont noe but somehow my b'daes have never really held much importance to me but i guess it does feel good for them to be remembered at times.
and so i feel the sudden need i to say my thank yous. firstly to those who wished me on that day itself. was really sweet especially given that we had cts the next day and everyone was busy mugging their bums off.. then to von khaw hannah and mish for making the dinner thing as rediculas and fun as it possibly could be. thank you, it was some much needed laughter and joy to go with all th shit that was happening. yup bong i love the pillow!! and tara lin, the thing is currently under my table and i burst out into smiles every time i see it. thanks roy too for everything!! and matt ..u noe.. and everyone else i forgot. i am too tired. to go on but yup im just tankful for the few souls in my life that today mean so much more to me than ever before.
jc's changed us all. i wish things could go back to what they were before but i know they cant and in some sense im glad too. it forced me to grow up. 17 is just a number. you cant put a number to my thoughts, to my feelings, to me.
define me, you,us. if u can.
anyway random song that ive taken a liking to.
Unfaithful by RihannaStory of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both knowWhere I'm about to go
And we know it very well
Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the doorI see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
UhAnymore (anymore)
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the doorI see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...A murderer (a murderer)
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and so here's to 18..250607..eh just realized that 17 was actually quite a nice date 250606. =)
too many numbers to care.
peace out. 12:02 AM
Friday, July 07, 2006
ah ok just go see this..im so impressed..
Titanic 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T-yn_Fnve-Q&mode=related&search=when matt showed it to me i was like OH MY GOD, we are so gonna watch this. then he started sniggering and laughing like mad until it finally hit it that its actually not a real show.
but its brilliant..
i had to see it like 5 times again before finally believing that it wasnt real cuz u can actually see the shots from catch me if u can and romeo and juliet. whatever it is, it seriuosly was damn nice! i like so go see!
peace out. 10:46 PM
i feel so bad i didnt go training today..shit!! and i brought all my things and everything!! haiz but i didnt know i would start cramping now did i.. humph..update on cramps..they hurt like hell..ive eaten 3 bars of chocolate in hope that it will get better but its not working..tried to sleep too but it was too painful and hence im attempting to blog to take my mind of it. why does it hurt so much!!! im terribly pissed. and i cant take pills! hail the kid thats gonna die in u noe what!
on a side note im not failing too miserable for cts!!..yea man..at least im gonna fair better than his aoff!! yes! other than that im just bored and i kind of dont have anything else to say..so yup bye!
.be my escape.
peace out. 6:20 PM