bleugh
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
yea and that says it all
doesnt it.
you know i
dont think i can look at you and not see who u could become. and i see all this and i just want to take you back to those days when we used to make sense to each other. where what i said mattered to you and those days when u made me smile.
today all we do is bicker and be sarcastic, knowing saying things we know will sting the most. you know me best. it sucks that we now use it to hurt each other.
ergh. anyway silly things like this
dont matter. but after the big things screwed up
im grasping straws now
arent i.
well as least m is back
goodie for me.
peace out. 9:11 PM
Saturday, April 05, 2008
i remember saying that
i'd rather have it and not be able to go then not have it at all
cuz i figured at least i could comfort myself by saying hey dear u got in...and now that i have it, i cant think of anything more agonizing or cruel than not being able to go.. its like dangling the carrot and yet not being to reach it.
gosh this feeling is perhaps even a tad worse than inadequacy.
but i trust god and i have faith. perhaps it will sort itself out.
perhaps.
maybe it'd end up with me sighing at the dream that was so close to becoming a reality but just slipped away.
it will heal wont it?
peace out. 11:06 PM
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
thank you god! =) thank you so much!! i dont think i could have asked for anything better.
peace out. 11:08 AM