Tuesday, August 29, 2006
It's amazing how for the first time in a very very very long time, my e-mail inbox doesnt have a single new message. it used be averaging at least 5 a day but today as i opened it, to my pleasant surprise, there wasnt a single new message! whooo hoo! i see council is really taking this "STOP WORK!" notice to heart..good considering most of us are in deep shit with our studies..oh hell.
got back physics today, after which i was rather distraught..i think..but was definitely panicking considering i really thought i studied for this one. once again fudge! was freaking out quite a bit thinking about how at this rate im gonna flunk promos and what not... but after coming home and taking my much needed nap..if u call sleeping for 2 hrs a nap.. that feeling's gone..hmm amazing huh how sleep can be so peace inducing.
oh yea not too mention teachers' day is in two days. will be a tad weird that its no longer in rg..no longer have to be running after the laws, leows, azahars or whoever for that matter.. rushing to wish them. will be different i guess..a good different? im still on the fence on that one but "change is inevitable, not lest from the vending machine"..totally.. yes so i guess what's amazing about this, is that a year has nearly gone by in rj and somedays it sucks bad but someday's its so great u wonder how u could ever not like it...yes my take on it..oh yes side note..are we going back to visit the laws/leows/azahars again? i have no idea..lets see shall we.
random note:
i never knew kevin bacon was married to kyra sedgwick..Amazing yea
karr didnt do it..what the hell is his problem then? Psychotic loser. am rather amazed that he was that delusional..hmm perhaps i shouldnt judge him. i dont even know him. i've always believed that there is no such thing as good and evil in this world..we only see shades of them as and when we choose to. Circumstance moulds you and you are the result of your environment(good or bad). as joan said "u can judge me all you want for you will be judge yourselves too."
yes watched joan of arc the other day and was rather mesmerised by it. yup i dont know how far i believe it but it was a story of amazing courage..and yes i liked it.
ok im tired of trying to keep to the amazing theme.. u should have noticed it by now i figure..
another side note: booya to the classmates of mine that have found my little hole..dont go telling anyone! thinking of changing my template..change is good yes..though..will save this one just in case i decide to revert again after all this template comes with its fair share of memories.
good night!
peace out. 8:29 PM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
i should really be doing my eom now but alas, i venture back here.
been a while really and quite a bit has happened..let me try to update as vaguely and as quickly as i can. hmm sleepover at deb's was mega fun..kinda b'day surprise thing..2 months late mind u but was really touching! thank you aunty and uncle for the food! and deb bel roy, lov ya bums. had major photowhoring session after that..the result of which can be seen on yilin's blog and girl talk at night was good. nat day celebrations bombed. haha nvm i shall not go into details but mus and her version of along came polly was definitely a major plus on that day. oh yes somewhere along the week watched hard candy. it was weird entering the cinema only to find yourself staring at people nearly a decade or more older than you. that in effect set the tone for the movie pretty well given that i was squirming in my seat for most part of the show and had my eyes shut when i wasnt. i think im just not ready for such a movie!! my robbed innocence..ya ok whatever.. so anyway it was terribly psychotic though page's acting was really pro..and as much as the guy turned out to be revolting, at the end of it all, the girl really seemed to be one who needed more help. yup hmm yes shall leave that to another time..just know that it was psychotic but but but i LIKED IT!! yea no surprise why.
ok that aside..promos are coming.. im scared and i want to hide under my table for ever. just too bad that little space cant fit me and my pillows otherwise ill be all set! oh yes that reminds me i think im putting on weight..what with no more softball,no gym,no running, mega eating blinges(think college day and speech day)..haiz. cant wait for it to be all over and i can go back to playing.
oh yes today was rg speech day, which i felt was really too long for its own good. ya im sure we needed to be delighted with a concert and even if we did couln't we start earlier at 9? not like we needed to be preped or something. hello we are 17 not 5, we do know how to get prizes. and and and ok nvm i shall not complain since the great food made up for most of the shortcomings.
and i shall my leave my pointless rambling here today...
maybe not.
i remeber once saying that i dont think ive ever been truely happy in my entire life and grumbling over what not..all i can say now is that i would give anything to have that feeling back..give anything to replace this emptyness now. any emotion is better than not feeling at all. jc has sucked the life out of me.most of us for that matter, started off so well, then came the struggles of finding your place, yourself and what not, now its just become so mundane and pointless and yet the facade lives on as it always has.
i miss me.
having said that my last attempt at writing a poem was juct before cts ( i know its really long ago!) and i havnt been able to write another one since cuz i just cant seem to finish/continue this on..
so here goes at least by writing it here i might inspire myself to finish it..u think?
dismiss the lord for he cannot seea shadow across the land to beunleash the terror yet to unfolda silent story waiting to be told.Pray for the child, withered and lostand it ends there..hmm not very nice.
oh and here's one i like that came a little before..
Lets make up with salty kissesSwaying in each other's armsLest we rememberThe wretched path we took before.im a 4 liner girl! and i end here. goodnight.
peace out. 12:05 AM