Saturday, June 30, 2007

"so far, this is the oldest i've been." =]

had dinner with the softballers just now..sort of a belated b'day thing that was rather fun. ate at out of the pan. xi.an's recommendation and de.b bought big cake yay! thank you dears. it was really nice. hopefully ill get the pics soon and post them. darn i really need to find my own cam batt otherwise im never going to have memories of moments like these.

and guess who we met. coughjohncough. i hope we didn't embarrass him though and saw hot J1 boy too. so it turned out to be a nice night. tomorrow's another cousin's b'day party..yes another one..sometimes i wonder if our mega family will ever get tired of these gatherings but there's always real good food so who complaining. heh free loader mentality strikes again.

so anyway cts ended today and well to put it bluntly, they bombed. mugged like crap for chem and was so happy with all the practice i had done for organic. went into the paper thinking "bring it on! I'm ready for any shit you throw my way".. well apparently i wasn't all that well prepared. came out a wounded soldier. though is it really my fault they decide to put so bloody little organic inside? and then stuff the rest in?! oh and maths. heh me the genius blanked. seriously the one a i thought was in the bag even before the paper has become the pass I'm desperately praying for. its a wonder how it came to this. and physics. ah dear o'l physics is well who knows. that one is really in the air. i thought it was ok but ya every physics paper I've done till date I've thought was ok and look at wonderful marks I've been getting. so there i don't really trust my instincts anymore. though maybe econs will be my saving grace with a little b'day luck that is. otherwise it just be a megaly screwed exam.

i guess that just means studying a lot harder and a lot more productively from now on. not to mention timing myself. Ive come to realize that most of the questions i can do. but i take hell long to do them. oh well 2 months to prelims i guess. lets chiong and get 4as. so that i can be most improved student and get nice testimonials from the teachers then p.enn will take me and ill be happy and all set for the rest of my life. wishful thinking.

oh and i went swimming (yet again) after the paper today. everyone thinks its weird that ill rather spend my time alone then go out with friends after cts. i guess for me it was sort of a combination of factors. first that i knew that cts bombed so i really wasn't in any mood to celebrate even though it was the end. for it just marked the beginning of a much longer studying period that i have to embark on. second most of my closest friends are all in so3 so ya and third swimming is therapeutic, much like running.
m.att joined me at s.rc later but was disappointed at the lack of "hot girls" there. idiot boy needs to be shot dead. so all in all has been a crappy week though today was good generally.

and and i just realized something. my last paper is on the 29th of november. grad night is on the 5th of dec. hello when am i going to get my dress!! bloody crisis i tell u. i see the dream is coming true. NO!!!

"i don't love you anymore.i just don't."

peace out. 1:57 AM

Monday, June 25, 2007

so amidst all that mugging and start of cts, i turned 18 today.

and ill let you in on a secret: it feels absolutely no different! lol.

thank you all though!

and so chem calls tata

peace out. 12:39 PM

Thursday, June 21, 2007

=)

and if i may add my tennis sucks! b.ong said so too and guess what he didn't even see me play! he saw kw picking balls too often lol. oh well im too happy to care!
[edit: Kw actually wrote the heart thing in the last post. well done friend u actually do have a literary bone. im proud]
[edit 2: have i mentioned the current pet peeve is HINDER! yay i like. first song i heard was lips of an angel. and i like the lyrics so there go listen!]

update: MY SISTER WAS ON THE NEWS!!!! heh! the cristo.pher le.e case cuz she's doing some attachment in this law firm and the lawyer was representing him or something like that. so she was there and they showed her face next to the lawyer! so fun!! and so cool!! no wonder she actually bothered to watch the news.

.go home.get stoned.

peace out. 8:27 PM

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

took this from kw.

“give me your heart!” she cried, as he began to turn away.
he looked at her sadly, and said “my heart is stone.” And it was true; it was cold, cracked and hard, and heavy with sadness, as he took it out of his chest and gave it to her.
“I have no heart,” he said.
“Take mine.”
She took her heart and gave it to him, blood red. no longer did her body hum with emotion, nor her veins course with floodtides of red. she was empty, a vacuum; but still she held out her heart.
he put it in his chest and walked away. she felt the heart of stone crumble.
they sneered at her heartlessness,
but it was only because she had given hers away for a broken heart of stone.

i say how very profound.

and last thing for the day.

hopefully that brightened up your day too. lol.

peace out. 12:48 PM

Monday, June 18, 2007

someday i want to scale everest too.

peace out. 9:55 PM

Saturday, June 16, 2007

retail therapy with the mother beats everything. yes well with the free flow of cash at hand, why wouldn't it. so anyway i just popped in here to say i bought nice ballerina "pumps" yesterday!! and i wasn't even looking for shoes. so weird but so fun.
apart from that i think x.ian and i are becoming super thick-skin. well for food we'll do anything rite (ok nearly everything like call every Junior we know and beg for food.) shameless i know. oh well. and that's about it. ill try to be more cohesive some other time. and by the way zhifa.ng is blogging again. no i kid u not.

peace out. 2:42 PM

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

i really like the serenity at 6 in the evenings on the track.. there's not a single soul there and surprisingly the quietness transcends awkwardness. its nice..possibly even tranquil. perhaps ill go run again tomorrow though with the softballers training and the trackers there, probably will be too paiseh. heh. maybe in the morning then. maybe. but i definitely think ill go run again on Thursday when there's no one or study there like what s.iok did. hmm

well anyway have i mentioned that in the course of mugging, i've made quite a bit of revelations. but since im trying to pretend im intelligent, i shall refrain from mentioning them here otherwise u'll just burst out laughing and go "noob!"
but here are some other things i learnt in the past couple of days:

1) never think "yay me!" too soon..
after going to school rather late yesterday and ending up on a table really far from the fan, u can imagine how ecstatic i was when the classroom next door vacated. so i was went "heh. yay! i get a classroom all to myself!" sat right under the fan and started mugging, feeling all gleeful. well guess what happens 5 mins later. this man walks in..the air con repair man.. and im like "hmm ok" -keeps doing work- then out of nowhere i start hearing weird humming noises from the back. so im thinking 'ok nvm weird man will be done soon. i still have a room. take that!" but guess what.. our dear friend starts singing, no i kid u not, in CHI.NESE hideously and really loudly. bah. i could have shot him but being the nice girl that i am, i politely walked out of the room, cursing him silently, to go eat-again-. humph maybe it was his ploy all along.

2) theres a light at the back of LT2 (who knew?) and when LT2 is pitch black, it would be a lot wiser to just enter from the front instead of attempting to navigate down those insy stairs.. yes keep that in mind too wh

3) the seven 11 man is.... ok nvm this is all stupid t.ara's fault. now every time i walk in i always want to die laughing

4) dont go parading your seven 11 bought food to the stall 2 aunty. u'll go from being her no one customer to the scum of the earth. try at your own risk.

5)math is actually quite fun.

and if i keep this up the sister will shoot me since its her com im using. oh well off i go.

peace out. 9:56 PM

Thursday, June 07, 2007

today was a not so productive studying day. went to school at 10.30 left at 4.15. heh slap me. ah well. on a much brighter note, g.ordon and m.att might be going for lunch with me tomorrow if they can wake up that is..i think they have off day or something like that from ar.my. yay and if im lazy they said they'll buy me food and come to school! whoo! this is what i call the lure of R.JC!

so there.. let me go mug again soon.
edit: how very apt. stole this from k.w.

and this i like too.. even more apt. the rebellion against studying

peace out. 8:58 PM

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

gosh my third entry in what 3 hours? slap me! ok from tomorrow onwards no more blogging. err ya ok. anyway did i tell u i dreamt i won amazing race with chuw.en yesterday. No not kidding at all.. win as in 1 million ok!! and i was so happy until i realized it was all a dream. bah.
oh and you know who was the host..SHI.WEI!! hehe and i remember where the last pit stop was..some weird old building then we saw a ladder and chu.wen was saying lets climb that..then i was like no la cannot they wont make us climb later one of us fall and die how we can sue them!.. and chu.wen went eh ya that's quite smart so we had to find another way up and guess what behold there was actually a flight of stairs behind. heh. it was actually a very very amusing dream now that i think of it. oh and before that we were in a taxi and the driver was super on..he drove across the whole meadow haha yes like zoomed across it. [edit: chu.wen thinks its france. heh i think so too! lol]

and and the night before i dreamt that some lady wanted to shoot me. that one was seriously terrifying, i could literally feel that shiver down my spine and i woke up screaming for my brother to shoot her first (in cold sweat mind you) hmm

i wonder what this all means. must be going mad. u think?

peace out. 1:04 AM

Monday, June 04, 2007

i just thought this was very very amusing.. all those random souls who are counting down to the start of cts as seen on their msn nicks are well counting down to my birthday!! heh bless you dears!

peace out. 11:57 PM

first of all, i did not, in your words, "fucking screw it up" for you and will take absolutely no responsibility what so ever for whatever you are doing to yourself and the people around you right now. yes what i had to say mattered quite a bit but in the end your actions were what cost you not me. please dear boy grow up. for your own sake.

im honestly not angry. hello i do not have the time for such trivial nonsense. i need to study to go to *cross fingers* penn. so leave me out of it. humph. how very annoying.

ok now that i have let that tirade out, ill just like to add, i honestly do/did believe in you but i also felt 1)you needed more time and 2)that there was someone better. I'm not pleased that you are validating everything i said. actually on the contrary I'm a little stunned. you are better than this. where's the boy i once knew. or are u going to turn out to be like the rest of them. the ones i thought i had figured out, but somehow always managed to be wrong about.

maybe im a bad reader of character. though im actually pretty sure im not. make me proud please. make yourself proud.

peace out. 9:44 PM

Saturday, June 02, 2007

dinner was deliriously fun.. not in the laugh out loud gossip make noise way but more of a quiet contented warm fuzzy sort of way. heh. for documentation sake i decided it was important to blog about it so yup, this entry is for more for my sake than anything else.

well anyway today was my full-fledged immersion into the Chinese culture. ok fine im being dramatic, we just had dim sum. but yea this is one thing I've never done before even though most of the time the family goes out we always have Chinese or seafood..honestly i actually think I've been to a hell lot more Chinese restaurants in my life than to Indian ones. amusing isn't it. but we never ever had dim sum cuz well according to brother dearest anything "without rice" is not food and yes he must be accommodated.

hmm oh yes the point was that b.el de.b ruo.qi me went to eat dim sum and **** noodles at -wait for it- GEYL.ANG! (a gasp would be appropriate here) though it was actually really very good and cheap for the amount we stuffed ourselves with. and we gave roy her prezzie which i thought was mighty pretty and oh so us. 1+2+3+4+5+ 3 of us = 18!! err ya its a girl sentimental thing. i baked too! 3 muffins actually, bought the rest cuz well hmm disastrous story not to mentioned here.. oh yes we even had bean curd after that. yay "good food and good company" shit that seems so cliche but is really very true.

had a really good time. i think the 4 of us have come a long way, from our bubbly retard days in sec 1/2 (yes we still have them but not as perpetually) to the times we have now. its perhaps not as loud or jovial per se but that has sort of been replaced by a warmth and sense of familiarity. of understanding and knowing each other, the good parts and the bad parts and accepting that. heh how profound. Harry potter world together yea im blogging this so we wont forget!

and as fun as today was we have no pictures cuz contrary to popular belief, we..err fine.i..are not really cam whores! (oookkk i spoilt the cam and have hence been banned from taking it out so there.) but i figured i could post up other pictures since im feeling all nice inside. oh wait i have surprisingly few pictures of the four of us..blame roy la for not taking in chaingmai! and de.b and be.l for not going to france. and de.b especially for taking all other photos but never giving them to anyone else! hmm. oh well lets mix and match then.

our own lantern thing!

and u who was busy trying to get everyone else's one to fly.

groupie.

one of us. heh i do have one!! though all these are s recent. i wish i had pictures of chahaya days subway talks..u know the drift. oh well ill just have to pocket those memories. ok im lazy to go on. nite.

peace out. 9:55 PM

hopefully third time's a charm for me too ya

anyway dear tan r.uoqi happy b'dae! heh go to last year's entry if u want a sappy moment but ya the rest is in the note. u noe.

and that dear ones is the update for the day.
oh by the way have i mentioned that mugging in school is really rather productive! heh. and that given the parents will probably will leaving town again, i have to go home myself! darn

peace out. 3:45 PM