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V27 :kiss away the young thrills

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im so proud of myself right now for not giving up even though i really wanted to stop..there was a point i just couldnt breathe anymore..think it was because of the phlem that was/still is in my system but im so glad i pushed out despite wanting to collaspe as my arms were giving way. and the feeling right now that i have, gosh its really surreal like I SURVIVED!! -jumps and does the lame jig- and i think that the past 3 days have taught me alot. cliche as it may seem it really put a lot of things into perspective for me..why i was doing what i was doing. what for. who for. everything i asked myself before and couldnt come up with a strong answer to. i finally have the answers now and im glad. being part of something potentially great, something i've never done before, taking the unknown leap. im just really proud of myself and everyone and yup here's to the whatever's left of our 2 years ahead. bet its gonna be one heck of a ride.

so yes lettle notes..
thank you pek and licia for encouraging me on at the point when i really jst wanted to fall flat and not get up ever again.
thank you everyone else for eveything..sorry no time to go into details
my drawstring is out! yes i know ME!! lol but i think it's only right and im not willing to compromise on anything anymore especially after what we went through
i had FUN!! on hindsight ill definitely do it all over again.
i need to do my PI and math but im so shagged

ok thats that..i have to go take my meds now..didnt take them since i got them on thursday cuz they are the super strong ones that cause drowsiness and i really didnt want fall alsleep halfway doing something.

i think i finally believe in something now.

peace out. 9:21 PM

so campaigning's over and im in and as i look int o the future all i see is....well that's kind of the point i dont see anything.. its this hazy lump in front of me, giving me the frigtening sense of stepping into the unknown. but as apprehensive as i am, cant help but be excited too. its an endless road of opportunity, one that i just have to be willing to grasp. damn my thoughts seem to be so terribly incohesive these days and as u might have noticed so is this post. well i just wanted to say thank you. to everyone, to you.
and here's to all that's out there.

oh i just found out im linked in alisha's blog..hmm..dont want! haha im sorry but this place started small and i want to keep it that way. so the only people that come are those that i noe are coming..that's why there's no tagboard and im not linked anywhere (excepts deb's la cuz duh no matter how many times i told her not to link me she did anyway).. yup so ya if u're my closest reader then yay koodos to you..you found me but sush and dont tell anyone else..yup yup and off i trot to start on the piling pile

peace out. 9:10 PM

i trust in you
trust that u will make it ok
trust that things will turn out fine
trust that you will come through for me

yet boy oh boy im still scared..

i knock on your door hoping to be let in.
will u open it for me?

peace out. 9:06 PM

so rugby sevens was nearly a week ago but im still in sevens mood! well here are some pics.. more of my entertainment than yours though..


yes u guess it that's england no.7 the one ive been gushing way too much about.. he's only 21!! and damn talented cuz he got scouted and all. and he's super good arg!! haha that's the damn groupie pic of him cuz toffa,cara me and siok actually waited quite a bit after the thing ended just to get his sig(ok fine i forced them to wait with me) which in the end we couldnt get but hey i got this pic so yea im still a happy kid.


nicer pic of him where u can see his face. trust me he's really really good!
ok now onto more random pics....


huishan,viola, von and me trying to entertain oureslevs in the blazing sun..

von, my touch fellow touch ruggie who i go home with practically every day.

our painted on legs..cuz michelle wanted to win the 1000 dollar prize for best dressed school.. mine had i lov kenya while von's had kenyan boys are hot...trish's idea.. oh ya why kenya? well cuz we were allocated them..they were pretty good anyway and super enthu..

yup photowhoring again and a vain attempt at a pout.

the fivers reunite!!reminising the good ol' days..

with hannah mish nic and christine.. who werent seating with us at first

last one..with the 2 highest pple ive met to date..
yay so all in all it was a super fun and productive day..

and now crash bask to reality..campaigning's over..glad for that..i think ive done all that i could so i guess now its just about leaving the rest to god. if it's meant to be it'd be i guess. well lets just hope its meant to be then.save me from so much heartache.

just finished watching passion of christ..was definitely very intriguing and i have decided that i shall finally start reading the new testament one of these days..why? well why not?..its interesting..and someday if i can find the english version i want to read the quran too.. hmm

yup and thats it for today..im glad to be back here. random i noe. my apologies

peace out. 11:15 PM

april blues....im afraid life has just got a lot more complicated. sometimes i just wonder how it has come to be.how stupid little things now mean so much. ah how i miss the good old times when everything was black and white and never had any tinge grey. its impossible to stay in the middle as im learning now, impossible to keep pretending that it would be ok..no time cant go back so i guess its just time to move on..plunge head first into another pool and see where that takes you.

on a much much lighter note i seem to be coming here only when i have loads of things to do but just cant bring myself to do them..denial yes.. well in the midst of chopping up my papers for our campaign..scary..ok lets not go there..instead lets go to sunday which i spent at national stadium watching rugby sevens. im so glad i went. was so fun.. and exciting!! and i was even a groupie that day..oh and i was the only person to get an england player's sig!! yay me!! oh and no 7 is damn good..yess good in terms or rugby and og cuz in looks too!! and he's only 21! and im being so random but her's some pics! ok i cant be borthered to wait..some other time
cya

peace out. 9:53 PM