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V27 :kiss away the young thrills

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its days like yesterday i wish we became something so i had someone to share my stupidity with
its days like today i wish we became something so i could have someone to cry to.
and its days like tomorrow i wish we became something so i wouldnt have to study alone.

though on most days im rather glad we chose our own paths even if that meant us becoming strangers along the way. perhaps that was the price to way for my no wasnt it.

oh well. let be not muse about the past. vj game today. won. and that about sums it up.

goal for the next 6 months: to be happy ragardless of the shit.

peace out. 10:08 PM

sometimes i wonder, would things have been different had i had chosen differently..and i play with that thought for a while before tossing it aside and reminding myself, i cant turn back time and that deep down i know i woud make the same choices i did. the sis just finished her exams..2 yrs in law school down and is now blantanly watching heroes in front of me. darn i hate being j2. and hate having to decided where my future lies.

and so im taking sat2 probably in october since i decided to skip the june registration dateline..oh well and upen needs it so yay me. oh whatever. today has been a rather shity sarcastic day.

i need to start running again. more so for my sanity than anything else and from this week onwards i shall mug in school. if you see me going home pls kock me on the head and remind me that home=sleep and library=4as.. yay hopefully with s.iok since i know she's always there.. i sorta miss touch.. SORTA! and definitely softball or maybe its just the desire no actually the need to be out in the sun running around doing idiotic things. oh well

pls dear god dont rain tom.. since its at kallang which is 2 mins from my home!! after which studying can commence!

i thought this was rather amusing..
!roq.31-- says:
if mugging makes us THIS happy
!roq.31-- says:
we are VERY warped

ditto!

peace out. 9:21 PM

i cant wait for friday cheesecake.

and im really really tired of all the shit.

peace out. 8:39 PM

its rather intriging to read random blogs..where u go "high five, TOTALLY" at certain things and "no!!" at others, its also nice to see how dysfunctional the rest of the world is and how lucky i am for every little thing i have.

was von's party today -beam- fun! rubbishing around with the people that matter and just hanging out coupled with way too much cam whoring..monday dinner and cheesecake on friday..im going fat! oh gosh my bimbotic idiosyncrasy is becoming extremely evident! i promised myself when i first started blogging that i would never complain about the way i look here..and would at least some times talk about pertinent global issues, eeks that plan's in the bin now i guess. this blog is going down the self absorbed path, no!! oh well...

went shopping for her gift before that alone..it has sort of a calming feeling i guess..just me and the emo songs.. though i will add that i do not do emo anymore..really!! just retarded and the occasional bitchy..

anyway this week has been rather bah..but i did mug quite a bit i think at least compared to previous standards and having attending my fist chem remedial, have come to realise that i need to muug harder because i am better than that..yes ego moment pls allow it to last for a bit..


side note. i really do love dragon tiger-dunno what also-..who will all be forced to attend my wedding no matter where they are 10 yrs from now..yay!
side note number 2. reading not so random blogs (which i really havent done in a while cuz i find it tad weird to read about someone's life especially when we dont really know each other that well and see them in school the next day..its like knowing a person and yet not knowing them..a bit eerie i figure..anyway back to the point) i see the sentiment is shared. hmm
side note 3: guess who just called? yay havent spoken to him since goodness knows when so yes im quite contented. i think i like other random souls like myself though relationships with them never work but well its nice to hang out and err be random?
sidenote 4: my favourite blog closed down. darn.
side note5: eh eh my side notes can make a whole entry on their own, wouldnt u say!


oh looky house has loaded so off i go to watch it


conscience speaks: no more time to hang out goon! no more! how u going to go us like that?!
me:Bah!


.constipated people dont give a crap.

peace out. 11:54 PM

.silence and indifference.

peace out. 5:20 PM

its 130am and im sitting in the com lab in rj..whoo hoo..err ya not..we have to be up in an hour so me and ai.sha figured we just wouldnt sleep..probably not very wise..the effects of which ill feel tom no wait later today

aisha says: R.ESH IS GOING TO GOT TO HELL BECAUSE SHE CUTS HER HAIR. IN SECRET. SOME FUNJABI GIRL SHE IS. pFT. SHE ALSO HAS LOW ALCOHOL TOLERANCE. MUHAHAHAHAHA keyword: SEXONTHEBEACH. but i quite like her la. because she is keeping me company as we attempt to stay awake the whole night....... and now she is alsp. so i shall wake her up.

dont believe her la...remember i said i wouldnt come here so often..oh well that plan has gone mightly well hasnt it. well ok from next week onwards ill come here less, really really i promise. i think i just needed this pace to vent and all that..get everything out of the system.having said that again i say thank you. and i just realized that actually quite a bit of people read my blog..which is so weird for me since i honestly only thought that err chu.wen knew of this place. blame it on the fact i dont have a tag-board i guess. oh well i guess a wave to my closest readers is in order.

anyway as mentioned in the last post the sister turned 21 today..happy b'day!


with the uncl..

the b'dae cake..yummy yummy



ok this one's random..mine and wt's buddy


and the food we got them



half an hour more... dread is starting to fill in and weariness too..arh! its all going to be over

some just faster than previously fantomed. and actually some things i cant wait to be over.

tomorrow onwards im on healthy diet!! i think ive eaten way too many chocs this week and wasted way too much time moping about. its time to pick myself up and start again.

im rather optimistic today..i think its beacsue i realized there's a whole lot more to me. and finally im glad.

ps.hi ellen!

peace out. 1:31 AM

its not ok but ill be fine, really. yes it sucks and what not but thats life rite. shit happenes. (remember that Kar.wei?)

just returned from council camp day 1..tomorrow err not actually today is punjabi new year and the sis turns 21 so will only be returning back to school at say 1 am tomorrow night? hah rather amused since i have to be up by 2..wonder how im going to manage that..anyway the elects this year, at least to me, have been doing a pretty darn god job..they're really quite the clever bunch i have to admit.. oh by the way my buddy is we.e j.in..dont laugh!..me and wang.ting had buddy timw with the 2 of them which was really quite fun!..ok ill post a pic of the 2 of them tom i promise when im less tired..and we're meeting p.ek again on sun! yes i love p.ek!!

ok sorry im extremely tired and this entry is just meant to be above the last one..to let all u concerned dear souls know that im usually not that emo..though i still lament that my previous post wasnt even THAT emo.. im thankful for all of you really. and roy, cheer up k. no matter what ill still be here. and u asking me that was totally ok..i think we know each other well enough to be far beyond all those words. =)

yes i went down on wed cuz of his message..im a sucker for sappy things.. and yes roy your note made me cry..to which i say stop tampering with my fragile stae of mind! lol

ok last comment before i call it a night

pls dear god let me never talk to her again..pls pls pls dear god. i just dont want to anymore after all the shit. save me c.han and just allow me to yell at her once. just once.

von's bdae is coming.. i need to work out my gift soon

thank you really. for the hugs for the chocolates, but more so for simply being there

peace out. 12:33 AM

“Are you ok?”
Honestly, what do you think?

It’s a overused question that warrants no reply, at least in my opinion. Id rather be hugged and told to hang in there then be asked if im ok.
Nvm I don’t think you would understand anyway..
Im glad I spoke to g.ee yesterday..a 2 hr long convo but one that made me smile even if it was amidst a couple of tears and thank you to all those that cared, really
Ive cried it out, said my fair share of what the F**ks and am now just letting it be.

“but resh seems fine” yea im only fine to you because it’s a lot easier than to look sad. Its so much simpler to pretend everything’s handy dandy even though it feels like my guts are being vacuumed out of me every time I see my glove in the corner of the room..its still lying there waiting to pick up again as if it will see another training..wad do I say to it? “dear glove, its time to go back into storage?” and you wonder why it hurts

my last entry seems uncanningly upbeat, which is really a wonder.

And honestly at this point of time I really really want our friendship to be over. For me to stop pretending I even know you anymore and to stop being a hypocrite. It’s the stupidity I once promised myself I would never encapsulate again and here I am doing the same thing.. I really hate bitching about you because it just sinks me to your level..ergh lets not be friends anymore..oh wait perhaps we really haven’t been for a long time..go your way and leave me alone..ill be happy that way, a hell lot happier

Manipulator.

peace out. 9:59 PM

:( :) :( :) :(

hmm on a side note i think my buddies are too cool for me..
another side note.. the brother is returning in about an hour i hope he buys me back chocolates..could really do with them now

peace out. 10:06 PM

eh!i just found out my hh buddy! he's the boy i called emo! yup thats it for today..was a rather productive chem day yay!!...cant wait to see my real buddie though..pls dear god give me a slacker like myself so we can clique! the hh one seems to be too pro..i think he might be the next hh capt..at least that's my opinion from the campaign speeches that day..unless of course im wrong then oh well! anyway im digressing my point was..err actually i think this post really didnt have a point except that i now have a hh buddie!

peace out. 8:04 PM

theres a ridiculously huge bruise on my back.. cuz of the ball that hit on wed, which is really weird since i didnt feel anything then though it has begun hurting like hell..
went to the airport today to send the brother off..going to aus to play hockey..and then when they were checking in my cuzins realised they didnt have their passports!! rather amusing cuz well they live in bukit timah mind you, so you could imagine their horror.. thankfully that escapade ended well..though things like these never seem to evade my family! its always bound to happen to us
on a side note aunt said i look very much healthier and happier now! err the healthier part is prob another word for fatter since i've put on around 4-5kg since i started softball again..yes can u believe it 4-5kg!! woa cow and eeks!(screams frantically!!) but happier i agree! because i really really am..i think its an age old phenomena called glowing up..r.uoqi would agree and understand
and though ct results bombed..and when i say bombed i meant crashed and burned as well, im still happy.
its so relative isnt it. happy? somehow these days ive been using it a lot more loosely, less reserved about it..oh well, that bubbling sense of calm needs to be defined yes?

oh oh the below thing is really quite cool! and accurate..v.on did it too and agrees! yay! go try

peace out. 10:31 PM

peace out. 10:29 PM

fuck.

peace out. 10:22 PM