Thursday, January 25, 2007

.if u promise to keep me happy i promise to love u back.

oh god im so easily bought over. no time to angst so wait till sat full blown account of a very hectic week. take 5 is on the road. lets hope this goes well.

.bounce bounce. the art of the young.

peace out. 11:25 PM

Friday, January 19, 2007

its days like today when im glad i learnt how to cry again..
there its out and now back to life's never ending demands

peace out. 10:06 PM

Saturday, January 06, 2007

i guess we all always end up coming back from time to time to our little haven, to where we once felt safe yet completely obscure, terrified yet strong, where our desires take front-stage and where we say what needs to be said and yet chooses to be left unheard.. to the place which holds so many memories whether heart wrenching or just plain blissful.. ahh and since i cant seem to find that place anyway i guess its back to this little hole for me.

the last time i blogged was eons ago and well today had this weird tingling feeling to write my thoughts somewhere so woala im here. 2006 has come and gone and the whole new year thing hasnt really sunk in yet..maybe its because of orientation and all or maybe its simply because new year was a little different this time around..being in chaingmai and all..so it hasnt really hit that im j2 yet and that ill probably be swarmped soon with the whole sentosa thing and fish and co and softball and studies but i guess it'd all be worth it in the end.

im happy. honestly for the first time in a long while i feel contented. yes definitely stressed at times but still theres a strong sense of calm. like i know what im doing and i know exactly who i am. and in all honestly im proud of myself and the choices ive made. not a single regret! yay me.

highlight

s of the hols i guess for my documentation sake were well..spending time with the cuzins! satyed over at the little ones' house and babysat! yes me and babysitting! 3 boys on top of that!! and of course lots of staying over and celebrating b'days with jindo, the twins and reto..the retarded random dancing..me falling asleep all too often on every sofa at random moments and of course the rediculous amount of food we ate!!midnight snacking anyone?! oh oh and my hat!! ok its kes's but yea and def not to forget the super nice deserts at chijmes!! whoots! well i love the four of them and im really quite blessed to have them since i noe they'll always be around no matter what.

mext mega thing that happened i guess would be chaingmai open!! i didnt play but honestly i never felt more complete. it was perfect..exactly like how it was supposed to be. roomies were deb and del and -shock shock gasp gasp- deb actually woke up on time and we didnt get kicked by her too..quite the experince watching the pros at it and not to mention other unforgetable moments such as the party hat girl, the xian shopping syndrome! and the super nice long chat i had with roy! pokhead kept me awake on the plane ride back too! wonder how she pulled it off..the special new years "party" with our OWN fireworks.. and also getting to know the juniors again so yea it was altogether a good trip one which totally exposed me all over again to the world i once chose to leave behind. and am glad to have found my way back into. and here's to future trainings with hope.

other important things were i guess..brother's commisioning parade.. with the PM there heh..his son and bro were in signals together..

was actually very different from what i expected to see and it was nice to feel very SINGAPOREAN again.

oh yes south africa!! and council retreat in malaysia where the food was so freaking good its freaky!! though my stomach did undergo much unrest after that given the amount i tried to stuff in it. me xian shinbin and reshma..commz d at it.. oh and my nice pic of all the HH councillors.

dont forget christine's b'day too..food!! hehe and me and deb overslept before training the next day! yikes!

and happy times at tara's house with her super duper UGLY dog! haha ok but i love it though he tends to scare me a tad bit. hmm no pic of tara or her dog..i guess we just dont really cam whore when we're together..

and of course orientation!!

games comm and all. hols were packed with dry runs and games test runs but it has been a blast and despite the little table mishap because of which i was nearly in tears station games turned out to be quite the thriller. and they said my game was fun!! haha easily amused i can tell.. external activity was fun too i think..though i am starting to wonder if their stomachs are made of steel..hello cabbage with garlic/soyabean paste/pickles/green pea paste and some other wierd sauce? oh well good on them then.

.. me karwei and hyqel..co ogls..im so glad to have them make the whole experience so ultra lame and fun.

our dear og.. BB02 called L'eprechauns!! absolutely adore this bunch and they actually play along with our retardedness..for instance they drank up all the leprechaun juice we gave them without complaining one bit..it was red bull by the way to get them high which they were after a while!

cam whoring session with the mega deco piece on the floor. yes we were bored.

anyway its time to go to bed.. tomorrow's doing work day. wish me luck and then of couse comes monday again. oh goodness school has started. my my.. till we meet again i guess

oh yes side note: bless the ones that died in bangkok. and cherish the fact that we were in chaingmai and the tears i shed, some were for u too. even if i didnt realize it then.

another side note: im thinking about it again which is really really weird cuz i havent for so very long. the what ifs and stuff.. hmm. what's meant to be will be yes?

peace out. 9:52 PM