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V27 :kiss away the young thrills

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as m so aptly put it on sat "because you have to believe that if you dont get what you want now, god has something better for you in store" be it in terms of relationships or simply life in general. and i really do believe that now. especially after today.

i didnt want to go but im so glad i did. i had an awesome time and im thankful. whatever happens will happen i guess but for what its worth i regret nothing.
but most of all when snowflakes fall;i wish you love

theres so much theres unsaid; i dont know if its anger i feel or just simply disregard

peace out. 11:56 PM

im dead tired and yet i cant fall asleep i have yet to figure out why. tomorrows an awfully long day on top of that. yuck.

so m2 beckons. and its going to be different. for my own sake i have to make it different but thats not for today.

today i want to tell u about rag. about the people in it. how wonderful they are. how everyone around me thinks rag's the lamest thing in the world and while i may concur most of the time its moments like this i realise how wrong i am. these are the people who have passion about something thats not mainstream, who believe in med, who know its not "cool" and yet dont give a f about what other people think and do it because "if not me then who". we derive our joys from what we choose to derive joy from. so dont judge them. ever. dont say they are lame. dont say they are stupid to waste their holidays because if everyone thought like you (and me) did there would be no rag. there would be no pretty show to awe at in the end. we see the results only. its the effort that matters; always has been.
and ive made some pretty great friends; people i know will be there if need be.

sometimes we find things in life we never thought we would. its weird. i know i could be playing and enjoying my semi break but i made this choice and sticking with it gives me direction. it makes me a better person. you will not get it i know but i hope you would try though.

if theres anything i've learnt this year its that stability in life is the most important thing to have. and as i find my footing again, i see things a tad differently. council was puke inducing a lot of the times but i learnt so much from it and would never change it. as with rag.

and ive only been here for a week. heh

if its a tad over the place im sorry.

peace out. 2:59 AM

and all thats left to say is ok.

whatever that means.

peace out. 12:18 AM

because i studied like fuck for this.
and i thought it went well.
then i came home and realised maybe it didnt.

but tomorrow is a new day.

and for what its worth
im finally ready to be here.

peace out. 12:17 PM

Beat me, hate me
You can never break me
Will me, thrill me
You can never kill me
Chew me, sue me
Everybody do me
Kick me hike me
Dont you black or white me!

All I wann say is that
They dont really care about us
All I wann say is that
They dont really care about us

peace out. 10:16 PM

and for as long as i can remember it still hasnt changed.

bren sent me this today;
"i am not slow, i just may not be as fast and i dont even know if i want to get there yet"
apt in a way. but mostly not. i finally know what i want. took a long while but i know.

i could wish you peace but i wont. i could wish u happiness but i wont either.
because im selfish and i will always wish for you instead;

peace out. 10:44 PM