breathe hard
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
a penny for your thoughts,
a dime for your touch,
and a dollar for your heart
for tomorrows just a day away
peace out. 11:51 PM
<3
Monday, April 20, 2009
i swear i was amazingly insighful in the past.. reading old entries.. 2007 ones makes me wonder if i really became less intelligent or just simply forgot how to care.
either way that terrifies me..
peace out. 12:16 AM
chucks and skinnys
Sunday, April 19, 2009
define me you us?
i wrote this years ago i write this again....
except in a very different context. I'm not emoing, though it may appear so on this blog so let me reiterate that i am fine, very much loved and cared for and extremely content. exams are coming and thus perhaps my entries are less chirpy though i must add that ever since uni started my lack of happy, funny entries astonishes me as well
no i don't dislike med. very much the contrary actually, I'm proud to be here I'm glad I'm here, i just want to be defined by more than this that's all.. and i don't think people really get that. i don't just want to be a doctor.. i want to be the doctor that paints/acts/does something you know. i want more as selfish as it may come across..and perhaps its a foolish dream but for what its worth it's MY dream and it keeps me going.
my new desktop pic.. i love it to the max haha
and again i ripped this from an extremely old entry i never forgot;
I've learnt that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
dear c, i read feb. i wish i could call u now but my phone is warped hence I'm writing this here. i don't know whats wrong but I'm guessing and if it turns out to be right i want you to know that I'm here and will always be. life's going to be sucky for as long as you let it be and its time for you to rise above and seek your own happiness, for you to deal with the crap feel the pain as sucky as it will be and then leave it behind. because you are better than this and will not be defined by it. i think you're awesome and if i don't say it enough i will here.. thanks for looking after me in med/in hall for listening to my random nonsense stories or hearing me whine about i also dunno what and for just being my friend. =) pls look after yourself
and yes today i found myself loving the sunshine again. a part of me wonders if its because of you and the thought of what could be.. even if i know deep deep down nothing will ever come out of this; its the thought that makes me grin so thank you.
peace out. 11:04 PM
the fashion show.
Friday, April 17, 2009
because i want to remember this forever....
yesterday d.lwin's friend said i looked like a ballerina OMG =)
the second part i shant put here...haha
and petty is really not pretty.. so perhaps i ought to be the better person
but im tired and just once i wish i was heard.. just once.
peace out. 9:30 PM
i live off you
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
why do i keep looking at pictures on fb that i know will only make me sad/angry/annoyed... ergh its like an addiction i cant kick (and no im not referring to fb here)
can people ever really let go or will u always remember?
shit i feel ugly. not in looks though never cared enough about that. in personality. in things that dont really make sense to me.
im heading off to mug at central lib now till tom haha
and i guess its time to live off coffee and coke again.
peace out. 6:23 PM
blank
"and then you learn that kisses arent contracts"
peace out. 4:47 PM
why try to change me now
Saturday, April 11, 2009
ugly. damn
fb.
but maybe maybe its nothing? and if it is then
wtf?
i dunno not like i have any right to comment just damn annoyed.
but more
imptly though the world does not revolve around me. for his death should have made me feel just a tinge of sadness and yet if i were being completely honest, i feel absolutely nothing. not a single emotion. i
dont even feel for her i
dont wonder how they are doing, i
dont know if its because i
dont care... when did family become so insignificant to me i wonder.
perhaps h.l is right. maybe my morals are warped. though everyone leads their own life.
who am i to judge?
or rather who are YOU to judge?
this entry is all over the place
peace out. 3:18 AM
do u want to see it? the place where i am free
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
i think augustana could beat death cab..... today
haha
ah studying has been slow and its annoying. i need to get a boost soon. yesterday with v.on ber.nie and su.meet (v.on's two exchange friends) was fun in the sense i got a better appreciation of this hole i call my world haha
and i dont have anything else to add today
"cuz in my mind i've been there and theres no one here but me"
peace out. 10:03 PM
bleaugh
Friday, April 03, 2009
"People are going to disappoint you. I get that, I kind of expect that. But, what if you wake up one day and realize you're the disappointment?"
i still hate you
peace out. 11:43 PM