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V27 :kiss away the young thrills

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peace out. 11:59 AM

meeting new people and interacting with them in the past couple of weeks has led me to a strange realization.. one that im not very sure how i feel about as of yet.. i think i've reached a point in my life where i dont really see the necessity any more to make new friends and i know that sounds incredibly odd but its just that coming from rj where i had so many vastly different social circles.. ranging from my prc classmates to the sports people in school to the councillors to the many random souls i knew as friend of friend so my friend too.. i feel a much stronger desire to maintain whatever ties i have made rather than to steam roll and forge new ones. and its not only people from rj.. ma.tt and de.e who have become near constants in my life, the cousins, the outside friends.. i feel a stronger urge to hang out with them then i do to say spend time with my law og.. and no it has nothing to do with my og people.. they are all very nice albeit very different from me but that's nothing i havent been able to adjust to before. which then leads me to think that it probably boils down to the fact that i sort of know who are the people in my life that i value greatly.. the ones i treasure and cannot do without.. i can see these people at my wedding, at my Christmas gatherings, at my side for all the joy and grief to come and it worries me a little if by excluding the rest of the world i close a door to something potentially great.

and while mat.t tried to psycho analyze this the other day, he was probably spot on in saying that much of what i feel stems from the "break up" or what ever the heck it was. i dont really know and with uni starting im a bit apprehensive about how im going to react to all the new faces.

and while it hasnt even started im already starting to feel the tell tale signs of jadedness.. its definitely been one heck of a university ride.. first with the euphoria of getting "u freaking penn" as dee calls it, then not being able to go.. settling for engin and biz in nus..getting a call to go to law 2 weeks before school and now going to med.. gosh right..tell me about it.

and with orientation over i wonder if it'd be a tad odd joining them now and i wonder how much effort ill make to actually gel with everyone. perhaps the fear is unwarranted though perhaps its not. i guess time will tell.

though i must end with this...
im going to be a doctor y'all!!

peace the fork out to law and engin! =) wish me well.. i think i might just need it.

peace out. 12:55 AM