Friday, November 11, 2005
mum in a fit of fustration with me asked what i wanted in my life and i told her; to be happy. not rich, not famous, not even perfect, just happy. to which she gave me this miffed look and said someday u'll grow up.
but i dont want to. if growing up means letting go of all my childhood fanasies and dreams, then i say please let me remain as a kid. blissful and full of hope. i dont want to be a cynical
(too late.well not always.) bitter old lady when i grow up. i want to stay vibrant and full of life, laughing away with the people i love and cherish. is that really impossible. i mean is it really impossible to be happy. sure there'll be days when life sucks but i guess that why at the end of the day i want to know that i have a home to go back to. not a house, a home.
yea ask what has gotten into me. me the one that always said money is more important than love which i kind of still beliveve but now i seem to think that i need both to be truely happy. selfish and greedy as it sounds i want someone who loves me more than i love him(
as shi wei says its cuz guys are made differently from girls. so u def need them to love you more to ensure no straying occurs). i guess money will help, buy the house, feed us both but wouldnt love make the house a home. or am i just being a hopeless romantic? and have i just finally watched way too many click flicks. hmm.. well ill know in about 20 yrs which is more important. but for now i guess ill stick to the easier bet and work my assoff at becoming rich. love will just have to fit in somehow, somewhere along the way. and if it doesnt come then i guess theres always a nunnary somewhere for me. sister r**h..has a nice ring to it ya!
peace out. 8:25 PM