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V27 :kiss away the young thrills

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so everyone is looking at the future, wondering what's in store, praying for the best and along with that reminiscing the past. wishing they could have done some things differently, hoping that everything's gonna be same. Just evaluating life in general i guess. everyone except me that is. dont know perhaps its the fear of the unknown that's keeping me at a standstill. im still kinda in a limbo, knowing fully well that RGS is now behind me but still not yet accepting it. life's gonna change, im gonna change, we all are but JC's gonna past in a blink. in and out. just like that. so im going to have to make the most of it. its too early for thank you's and sorry's (those come at the end of the year) so i wont go into that and its too early to start thinking about the four years that have just passed cuz it still feels so surreal so i guess im just living each day at a time now, with no aim, no plan no nothing. some may term my state of nothingness as simply being lazy but i'd like to think of it as my "me time". just take a break, have a blast and then in jan next year go back to all of it again and survive. ill manage.

yes so away from that little musing ill say that wed was perfect. yes, thats the word. perfect. you know in all my years of knowing you i think i never knew you guys as much as i did that day. it felt nice and im glad things turned out the way they did. it feels so much better knowing that no matter what you still have my back, just like ill always have yours. yes see im diverging into the contemplation mode which im refusing to do for the next week or so..the time for that will come just like the time for everything else and today is simply not one of those days.

so anyway i was looking at angela's photos and i have come to a realization that ive grown quite a bit from before. i mean take my sec 2 photo and compare it with the prom one..hmm rather different i would say. but then again if u compare the normal me with the sec2 one i think its still the same. so the specs have changed/gone depending on the day and the braces are off and the ears are pierced..other than that everything else is still the same.. hmm well, maybe im taller. oh gosh why am i doing this?

self-reflecting? na not today as promised. so how do i keep this entry happy and worth your time without allowing you to enter the inner workings of my mind? well lets see, first of all im breaking out!! eeeewww!! i hate pimples. humph shall walk out with a bag over my head. then there's the fact that im putting on weight!maybe it has to do with the fact that im not playing softball anymore and ive been pigging out lately. wad can i say those hunger pangs really suck. oh and have i mentioned theres a new member in our family? ah yes bro bought a tennis racket today. its yellow and so pretty! which of course means im forbidden to touch it though im still wondering when he's ever gonna play and where and with whom. yea i guess i could take it sometime to chuwen's place. oh that reminds me bball! i wanna learn. wait she prob wont even be reading this but heck. yup so is that as unintelligent and as self-absorbed as most blogs that im reading these days are? fine i had to take a dig.

meybe i should start making lists of things a i wanna get done this hols. yea i think i might and then ill just drag lunny and shiwei with me to all my little art shows..yay ok settled then. hmm something tells me this hols isnt gonna be half bad.

peace out. 9:56 PM