Sunday, April 23, 2006
im so proud of myself right now for not giving up even though i really wanted to stop..there was a point i just couldnt breathe anymore..think it was because of the phlem that was/still is in my system but im so glad i pushed out despite wanting to collaspe as my arms were giving way. and the feeling right now that i have, gosh its really surreal like I SURVIVED!! -jumps and does the lame jig- and i think that the past 3 days have taught me alot. cliche as it may seem it really put a lot of things into perspective for me..why i was doing what i was doing. what for. who for. everything i asked myself before and couldnt come up with a strong answer to. i finally have the answers now and im glad. being part of something potentially great, something i've never done before, taking the unknown leap. im just really proud of myself and everyone and yup here's to the whatever's left of our 2 years ahead. bet its gonna be one heck of a ride.
so yes lettle notes..
thank you pek and licia for encouraging me on at the point when i really jst wanted to fall flat and not get up ever again.
thank you everyone else for eveything..sorry no time to go into details
my drawstring is out! yes i know ME!! lol but i think it's only right and im not willing to compromise on anything anymore especially after what we went through
i had FUN!! on hindsight ill definitely do it all over again.
i need to do my PI and math but im so shagged
ok thats that..i have to go take my meds now..didnt take them since i got them on thursday cuz they are the super strong ones that cause drowsiness and i really didnt want fall alsleep halfway doing something.
i think i finally believe in something now.
peace out. 9:21 PM