Saturday, June 30, 2007

"so far, this is the oldest i've been." =]

had dinner with the softballers just now..sort of a belated b'day thing that was rather fun. ate at out of the pan. xi.an's recommendation and de.b bought big cake yay! thank you dears. it was really nice. hopefully ill get the pics soon and post them. darn i really need to find my own cam batt otherwise im never going to have memories of moments like these.

and guess who we met. coughjohncough. i hope we didn't embarrass him though and saw hot J1 boy too. so it turned out to be a nice night. tomorrow's another cousin's b'day party..yes another one..sometimes i wonder if our mega family will ever get tired of these gatherings but there's always real good food so who complaining. heh free loader mentality strikes again.

so anyway cts ended today and well to put it bluntly, they bombed. mugged like crap for chem and was so happy with all the practice i had done for organic. went into the paper thinking "bring it on! I'm ready for any shit you throw my way".. well apparently i wasn't all that well prepared. came out a wounded soldier. though is it really my fault they decide to put so bloody little organic inside? and then stuff the rest in?! oh and maths. heh me the genius blanked. seriously the one a i thought was in the bag even before the paper has become the pass I'm desperately praying for. its a wonder how it came to this. and physics. ah dear o'l physics is well who knows. that one is really in the air. i thought it was ok but ya every physics paper I've done till date I've thought was ok and look at wonderful marks I've been getting. so there i don't really trust my instincts anymore. though maybe econs will be my saving grace with a little b'day luck that is. otherwise it just be a megaly screwed exam.

i guess that just means studying a lot harder and a lot more productively from now on. not to mention timing myself. Ive come to realize that most of the questions i can do. but i take hell long to do them. oh well 2 months to prelims i guess. lets chiong and get 4as. so that i can be most improved student and get nice testimonials from the teachers then p.enn will take me and ill be happy and all set for the rest of my life. wishful thinking.

oh and i went swimming (yet again) after the paper today. everyone thinks its weird that ill rather spend my time alone then go out with friends after cts. i guess for me it was sort of a combination of factors. first that i knew that cts bombed so i really wasn't in any mood to celebrate even though it was the end. for it just marked the beginning of a much longer studying period that i have to embark on. second most of my closest friends are all in so3 so ya and third swimming is therapeutic, much like running.
m.att joined me at s.rc later but was disappointed at the lack of "hot girls" there. idiot boy needs to be shot dead. so all in all has been a crappy week though today was good generally.

and and i just realized something. my last paper is on the 29th of november. grad night is on the 5th of dec. hello when am i going to get my dress!! bloody crisis i tell u. i see the dream is coming true. NO!!!

"i don't love you anymore.i just don't."

peace out. 1:57 AM