Saturday, April 05, 2008
i remember saying that
i'd rather have it and not be able to go then not have it at all
cuz i figured at least i could comfort myself by saying hey dear u got in...and now that i have it, i cant think of anything more agonizing or cruel than not being able to go.. its like dangling the carrot and yet not being to reach it.
gosh this feeling is perhaps even a tad worse than inadequacy.
but i trust god and i have faith. perhaps it will sort itself out.
perhaps.
maybe it'd end up with me sighing at the dream that was so close to becoming a reality but just slipped away.
it will heal wont it?
peace out. 11:06 PM