a far cry from sanity
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
im should be leaving for the airport in 2 hours to pick the parents up and yet sleep evades me.. perhaps because
im starting to think about certain things that i probably
shouldnt be thinking of. things that i know are only going to lead nowhere.. i wish i knew, you know..
thats only because if i knew then i could know what to think/feel back.. but since i
dont know, i
dont want to jump to conclusions lest it leave me feeling stupid and silly in the end.
but perhaps i
shouldnt even be thinking about it for it can never be i believe. not this way i think. not anyway i know. and ill be happier if it works out the other way; because
thats the way it was always meant to be.
i think
im semi emotionally drained now after revealing something
ive tried to run from and pretend that
didnt exist to be.l and then talking to c about other stuff that made me a tad sad.
i guess strength lies in believing that tomorrow will be better.
though ill let you all in on a little secret;
tomorrow always disappoints.
thats just the way it is.
peace out. 3:24 AM