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Thursday, January 08, 2009
so
emo so
emo so
emo.. why so
emo!
i
didnt but i thought you did so i did but now i know you actually
dont which means that i have to
dont as well..
so complicated.
m left yesterday. he thinks
im too silly for my own good. i probably am.
and some very nosey random person told l about last night.. which led to quite the meltdown a while ago. AGAIN. its a never ending vicious cycle with l. one which leaves me rather emotionless and all the more empty on the inside.
and i need to mug now but i cant because i just want to hide under my table and cry. go away go away please for my sake.
dont even say goodbye. just leave. and then ill be able to breathe again.
its agonizing to keep believing that you would change that it could be better when obviously it cant and it wont. i
dont want to be your friend. i
dont want to be anything to you because all i really want is to one day walk past you and not remember you.
i honestly wish i never met you now. the bad days suck so much for me to even
remember the good days anymore.
and then tomorrow
u'll call and apologize again like you always do. and ill say
ok lets do the friends thing again but what i really mean is go away. all you ever do is break my heart over and
over and over, so much so that all
thats left is a sad patchwork of ugly memories i could have done without my whole life.
i could be so happy now if not for you. thank you for making me this way.
and i know you will read this..
dont call
dont reply
dont do anything.. just leave.
and no
im not saying its your fault that you're wrong
because you probably
arent. i know you express everything better in
incorrigible, except to me, shouts and stinging words and yup what you said was all sort of right if you toned it down A LOT...
but its finally time to walk away from this mess.
leave. thats all i ask from you. thats all ill ever ask again of you.
peace out. 11:44 PM