i think i need a tan.. yes i know im black and it doesnt make sense but i swear i feel a tad fairer possibly cus i havent been in the sun in goodness knows when so it feels odd i guess..

today with the kids was wonderful..when im around them i feel so blessed and thankful. for the life i have and for the opportunity ive had to work with them. for they make me realise what's important in life, they make me see that if they can smile through everything they have to face i can do anything if i put my mind to it... their daily struggles put me to shame.. and when they hug me like ive given them life when all ive really done is added a colour here or a line there to their amazing work; a part of me dies of incompetence and cant help but feel undeserving and then there's the other part which glows and thinks i thank god for u.. and everyone that laughs at them i want to box their noses for they are more beautiful than any of us could ever be. us in our materialistic pursuits, in our silly diamond castles, us....if only we could see ourselves

no im not romanticizing their lives im just saying we all have so much to be thankful for, we dont even know how good we have it.

i missed be.n's perf today but ill talk to him tom and im sure he'll understand.. perhaps i wasnt a good friend today but i think today i was a good listener, a good hand holder, a good hugger, a good mentor.. i cant wait to do the touch ups and let them bring their drawings home..

for today i learnt whats important and its honestly whatever i want it to be.