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Thursday, May 14, 2009
bleaugh.. i know i
shouldnt be doing this now but the mother got semi pissed at me today... everyday i come home and say "not very good, think might fail" today
not differenthmm and after tom she wants me to talk to dad about
europe.. if i still really want to go given that i might hit subs and what happens if i do...
haiz i know i have one more tom but that one
im going to spam after this..
im just completely drained..
poppoing pillls to survive.. i never had to resort to this before..
if i do actually make it through this without subs i
dont think ill play next year much.. i like
c's 5 month break idea but i know its not for me already.. i think it'd be like a whole lifestyle change..
so back to the papers.. one
shouldnt hit subs...2 is really 50-50.. i thought the second part was much much better than the
mcqs but its really very hard to call.... i need a 53 which is a 106... i honestly
dont know if i can get it done or not.....
then
todays was bloody
shitass... i know everyone said it was easy and doable but i wanted to die.. not because it was hard but because i
didnt know all the
fking things that came out.. like i
didnt study those yesterday so it was like trying to dig out from my brain.... i pray pray pray that i pass my
mcqs then
shouldnt be a problem but can i
fking pass my
mcq?
its like so much of me is banking on just hope...
theres a tiny voice in my head that says i think you will be
ok but
thats also the voice that lies to myself to make me feel better so i
dont know anymore.
give me hope.edit: i think you just did
(because my dad is the coolest =) )
peace out. 6:28 PM